break

ah. i've been doing stuff everyday so far since break started. damn do i wish my cell phone contract was fucking over so i could fucking switch to t mobile! the parents better switch or i will KILLL them. anyways. so lovey and roman called me last night. its not the same as him just calling me, and i miss that. i miss talking to him. i still think about all the times we spent together, all the times we've talked on the phone...and i always wonder how it'd be if he switched to lynnwood instead of all the way in _____. i got to admit, i still miss him. and i've been talking to laquan again and i guess sam says laquan still has feelings for me, but i really don't know what's up. i don't even know how i'm feeling myself. all i know is that i still have feelings for him and that will never change. but as for laquan? i don't know. and damn do i wish lovey's mother would move near lynnwood so he, and HIM could go to lynnwood. then i'd see him everyday and i'd be much happier.

to HIM: You're that guy, the one no matter how many more guys I go through, I'll always have a thing for.