shit.

this week is probably the worse week i've ever had. first drama with the momma. then some complications with a friend. then another friend is having their complications with family and others. i try and help out them all; i help everyone. but it's difficult when people don't listen. i love my friends. but being hardheaded is just plain stupid. it's not that hard to listen to what people to have to say, actually understanding and do it. man. even with my mom. goodness. stressful things happening. to much to worry about and yet it seems to be a routine in life. apparently shit happens all the time, but that's life, and you HAVE to put things aside or pull through and toughen up. because things like this only make you even stronger than you already are.

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as much as i love photography, i think i've turned into a camera whore! HAHAH. not cool. but i gotta love them candids. ;]

break

ah. i've been doing stuff everyday so far since break started. damn do i wish my cell phone contract was fucking over so i could fucking switch to t mobile! the parents better switch or i will KILLL them. anyways. so lovey and roman called me last night. its not the same as him just calling me, and i miss that. i miss talking to him. i still think about all the times we spent together, all the times we've talked on the phone...and i always wonder how it'd be if he switched to lynnwood instead of all the way in _____. i got to admit, i still miss him. and i've been talking to laquan again and i guess sam says laquan still has feelings for me, but i really don't know what's up. i don't even know how i'm feeling myself. all i know is that i still have feelings for him and that will never change. but as for laquan? i don't know. and damn do i wish lovey's mother would move near lynnwood so he, and HIM could go to lynnwood. then i'd see him everyday and i'd be much happier.

to HIM: You're that guy, the one no matter how many more guys I go through, I'll always have a thing for.

yay. i had plans for yesterday! now today and tomorrow! ;] yay. i'm soo excited. and dude. what if i get feelings for laquan again. OH GEE. anyways. i have 12 more pictures left to take for photography. but i want to go take some scenery pictures! or something on the water front somewhere. i hate not being able to go a lot of places without my mother getting MAD. ugh. okay. i hope i get good shots! i have to imitate pictures of Alfred Eisenstaedt. bomb photo-journalist!

today was not a good day, first the counselor told me i might not get my photography fee waived because i've had something waived this year already. THEN. later in the day i found out that i had no practice, so that was i big bummer! i was sooo looking forward to dance. i love it. then after school today when my sister came to pick me and lynn up, HUY happened to show up right behind my sisters car. and so we got into my sisters car and huy went in front of us, but apparently sandy told him to take the backroad, so he did a super fast sharp turn and hit billy's car. billy's car was aiite. but huy's, eh not so good. so he was in a bad mood. and i felt bad too. so we all went to lynn's house. after about an hour. we did some TALKING about a lot of shit that has been bothering us. and lynn is someone i can pretty much talk to about ANYTHING. so yeah. anyways. someone was getting on my nerves today. and she needs to start becoming a REAL person. that makes me mad.

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i blog like everyday, it's how i vent, so if you wanna know about my feelings, ha i guess that's where i'd be letting it all out, or even here. ;]